To The Next Guy I Give My Heart To

To The Guy That I Will Give My Heart To Next

I am fragile, broken, my walls are up, and I apologize for a lot of things but I can also promise you a few things as well.

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Let me start by saying that I am sorry for being broken. I am sorry for all of the future conversations we will have about why you like me or why you want to be with me because I just needed that reassurance. I am sorry for wanting to push you away whenever things are good between us. I am sorry that whenever I am upset I may shut down and not talk or act like when I am okay when it is clear as day that I have been crying. When you say "I am different" or "I am not like the other guys" I've heard it before so even though I am giving you a chance; I also have my walls up to protect my heart. I have been hurt so many times and as much as I do not want to compare you to the guys that have hurt me I simply cannot help it. I know that this first part has been pretty harsh and gloomy but, I can promise you a few things.

I promise that I will try my best to not push you away just because I am scared.
I know that I tend to push people away because I don't want them to see me scared or I am waiting for that ball to drop so instead of waiting I just want to avoid the bad things; so when I am scared or whenever things get bad I will not push you away. I will try my best to work through whatever is going on and stick by your side.

I promise to have heart checks with you not just to see how our relationship is doing, but to also see how you are doing.
I know that I am complicated and have a tendency to want to know how you feel about our relationship, but I also want to know how you personally are doing and how you are feeling about life and have the heart to heart moments with you.

I promise to give you a chance at sweeping me off of my feet.
I may be broken and I may have my walls up but I will give you a chance at melting my cold heart. I will try my best to remember that you are different and that you could be worth the risk. You could be the person that makes all of the past heartache worth it but if I do not give you the chance to sweep me off of my feet I will never know.

More importantly; I promise to be your partner in our faith and not only lead myself closer to God but, lead you closer as well.
I promise to help lead you to the cross and be there for you whenever you need me. I know that times will be tempting but I will be by your side to hold you accountable. I promise to help you hold the weight of your cross because I know that you would do the same thing for me.

I know I haven't said this yet and I will probably feel like I have not said this enough but thank you.
Thank you for being patient with me. Thank you for giving me time to open up to you but most of all; thank you for making me want to not only be a better person but for wanting to be a better Christian.

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Why You Should Stop Chasing Him

You deserve better.
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They say “the thrill of the chase" makes someone more enticing. There's just something about wanting something you can't have that drives you crazy (in a good way). There is never a dull moment. Pursuing him is a challenge. Nothing comes easily. What's the fun in that anyway?

I'm going to tell you this: stop chasing him. Stop forgiving him when he forgets to answer your text messages and phone calls. Stop being the one to always make plans. Stop letting him bail on you. Stop waiting around for him. Stop being lied to. Stop making excuses when he doesn't make time for you. There is a difference between someone who is “hard to get" and a flat out jerk who doesn't give you the time of day. Stop letting him use you.

You deserve to be with someone who makes you fall asleep every night in the middle of texting him because neither of you want the conversation to end. You deserve someone who plans dates for the two of you. You deserve someone who asks you to hang out before midnight. You deserve someone who wants to spend time with you just as much as you do with them. You deserve someone who insists on paying for your ice cream. You deserve someone who won't deceive you. You deserve someone who is straightforward. You deserve attention. You deserve affection. You deserve a partnership that is mutual, not one-sided. You deserve to be chased.

You are better than 3 a.m. “Hey" texts. You are better than a night spent watching a movie just to fool around. You are better than trying to decode his vague messages. You are better than his shadiness. You are better than mind games. You are better than being ignored.

If you have to chase him, he's not worth it. Don't settle for someone who makes you beg for his attention. If he is genuinely interested in getting to know you, he will put in the effort. A relationship where your feelings are reciprocated is far more rewarding than one where you constantly feel like you have to drag him along.

Change your mentality. Become more independent. Be confident, be bold. Find happiness in being alone. Don't waste your time pathetically chasing after someone who doesn't feel the same, but doesn't have the heart or the courage to tell you so. Your self-confidence and positivity will make you radiant, and eventually, you will attract the kind of guy who is mature enough to not mess with your head.

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Newsflash! It's Time For Everybody To Love Everybody

Come on, people, get it together.

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I, personally, think it's time for everybody to just start loving each other. Now listen, this doesn't mean you need to actually love everyone, but at least accept them. Acceptance is the closest thing we are gonna get to loving each other.

Let me tell you a little something: politics at the moment are very messy. No matter which side it is, it's messy. There is no denying that. If you try to deny that, then good for you, you're not helping anybody. If you really want some change, you need to start being the bigger person. Change isn't about who can yell about something louder or who has the "better" argument, it's about being respectful.

Just because someone has an opposing view does not mean you need to yell at them. Does yelling solve anything ever? Maybe temporarily, like for 2 minutes, but that's about as long as you're gonna get. There's absolutely no need to indirectly say something about certain individuals on social media. Yes, there is freedom of speech, but everybody should keep in mind why they have that right and why they still have it.

I do not understand why it is so hard to be respectful of one another. If someone goes after another person talking about how absolutely terrible it is of them thinking something should be illegal, the person who's being yelled at should respectfully ignore the other individual's disrespectful remarks. If the individual does not stop, then they are not aware that they are making no difference in the world.

What I'm trying to get at here is that in order to love each other, we really need to accept all our differences. If we really want change we need to go right to the sources, not just yell at each other from across the street. If everyone learned to accept each other, life would be a whole lot easier. Is this ever going to happen? Of course not. This is the solution though, whether you think so or not.

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