I turned 20 last week, and I never knew leaving my teen years behind would be so strange. Realizing I have spent two decades on this earth was surprisingly super frightening.

The nostalgia is so real. And although there is nothing too special about turning 20 years old, the thought of not being a teenager anymore comes with a lot of mixed emotions.

Entering into the world of twenty-somethings is super intimidating because weirdly enough I feel super old. I would give anything to be able to go back and do it all again.

But I am also super excited for everything to come, and I know I have to keep looking forward to all the “adulting” to come, like graduating from college, getting a really fun job (hopefully), and finding out more about myself.

As I get older I feel more and more pressure to do something with my life, and I feel a whole new energy to be proactive now that I’ve hit 20 years old.

I look up to women like Emma Watson, Beyonce, Sylvia Plath, Maya Angelou, and so many other awesome women who are so self-confident and determined. They help me set my goals, stay on the path, and accomplish them.

I realize how many people have supported me throughout my life, and I am so thankful for everything because life can be hard, but with friends and family it can be so much easier and more fun too.

So, although my teenage years are behind me, I am so excited for everything to come because I have so much more to look forward to and so many to help me along the way.