Recently, someone asked me what my "biggest regret" is.

Memories of you -- of us -- flooded my mind. Tears welled up in my eyes. I told them that what happened with you and I was my biggest regret. I had never admitted that to anyone before. But now, here I am, admitting it to you and the rest of the world, too.

I regret not trying harder.

You were my first date, my first kiss, and the first person I ever fell in love with. I thought that we would be together forever -- and then I went away to college. Our relationship became complicated. We broke up suddenly, didn't talk to each other for months, got back together, and then ultimately broke up again. I blame myself for it all -- we both knew it was my fault. I should have tried harder. When it got too tough, I walked out. I was too immature to realize that I would one day regret getting scared and leaving you.

I regret not showing you how much I cared.

You probably didn't know it, but you were my entire world. I was an idiot for not showing you that. I was so happy each time I got to talk to you, see you, or even just hear your name. I talked about you all the time to anyone that would listen. I wish I would have told you all the things I loved about you to your face rather than telling them to other people who really didn't matter. I regret the fact that I made you feel unwanted by not showing you how much I truly appreciated you.

I regret not telling you that I will always love you.

You will ALWAYS have a huge piece of my heart. Every time I hear your name, my heart aches because I can feel the hole where you're supposed to be. The last time I talked to you I should have told you that I will always be here. No matter what, I will support you and only wish for your happiness. You deserve the world -- you truly are amazing. I really do regret not telling you -- to your face -- that I will always love you.

Just because I regret the ending of our relationship, doesn't mean I regret the whole thing. You were the best thing in my life during the time that we dated. You were everything I needed: stability, encouragement, and love. I hope that I was the same for you -- and I can only hope that you find that again with your forever love one day.