Sometimes God knows exactly what we need. Okay, I am mistaken. ALL THE TIME God knows exactly what we need.
This morning, amidst faded Christmas music in the background, I began to reflect upon my last semester while driving to my favorite local coffee shop. Thoughts of hardship, unexpected difficulties, and unintentional damages plagued my mind about my most recent college semester. Though there was a balance between feelings of struggle and accomplishment for jumping through many hoops this semester, I couldn’t help but feel resentful for how I may have treated people in my life.
I try not to be overcome with stress, especially to the point where it conflicts with my ability to respond to others with the love of Christ. However, I know that I fall short of the Lord every day. Gathering all of my study supplies, I was feeling disheartened walking into the cafe, knowing that it would never be my intention to hurt someone I care about.
I guess you could say I was being dramatic. Or I was being honest with myself about the sin in my life. But I know I have a big God that designed me for a bigger purpose. God does not want me to continually beat myself up for how broken I am; instead, He insists that I turn away from Satan’s lies and walk in His truths.
“For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.” Ephesians 2:10
As soon as I stepped inside, I ran into an old teacher of mine. She welcomed me with her kind, positive spirit and began encouraging me on my dance and career goals. She even proposed some ideas that I had already been considering and offered potential relationship connections. It was not coincidental; I felt it deep within my soul that I was meant to run into her and find my spark again today.
I want to lead a life that is pleasing to God. I want to glorify Him in all that I do and in order to do so, I need to flee from the negative thoughts Satan swirls in my head. The cool part is, God doesn’t just see you. He’s not just some invisible character you contemplate praying to…. No, He actually CARES about you.
“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7
God knew what I needed today. He knew I needed to let go of all my burdens, fears and anxieties and give them to Him. But this isn’t just a today thing. No, this every day, seven days a week, 24 hours a day thing.
God is always there waiting for you with open arms to come walk with Him.
I am grateful today for God reminding me of who I am. I am His, and He is mine. He no longer sees my imperfections; instead, I am clean again and His righteousness covers me.