As a first-year, first-generation college student, the first month and a half of the semester has been an extreme period of learning and growth. I am slowly, but surely, stepping into the most authentic version of myself. Part of this process is accepting all that I am. And I mean accepting everything— including the fact that I have anxiety and depression.
A semicolon is a punctuation mark used to continue a sentence when one has the opportunity to end it.
A semicolon connects two independent clauses that are related. Correspondingly, a semicolon tattoo symbolizes the connection between one's life and how they have chosen to persevere. It is also a symbol of affirmation relating to mental health issues such as addiction, depression, and/or suicide. This week I made the executive decision to get a semicolon tattoo. My tattoo represents my struggle and success pertaining to my mental health. Though my past may have been difficult, it is very much a part of me. My past struggles are just as much a part of me as the victories. In order for me to appreciate being mentally healthy and stable, I have to reflect on what it was like to be the exact opposite.
This tattoo is a reminder to be unapologetically me. The good and the bad.
Forgiveness has also played a vital role in this lengthy process of accepting myself. I have spent so long hating the entirety of me. I wasted a lot of time destroying my body and mind. The massive amount of shame I have carried from others' actions has hindered my growth. I am learning that it is OK to forgive myself for ignoring my own needs. I do not need to punish myself forever. It is time to move forward.
The gist of this article is to begin embracing who you are and all that consists of. For me, it was getting my semicolon tattoo. Honestly, the beginning of accepting yourself varies per person. It is not a linear process. I think of the quote:
"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it." - Maya Angelou (From GoodReads)
There is always a lesson to be learned from heartache and brokenness. I am a firm believer that with great sorrow comes great strength. Life will throw curveballs, but it is all about how you react to them. You get to define yourself. Don't let anything or anyone take that away from you.
If you or someone you know is experiencing suicidal thoughts, call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline — 1-800-273-8255