Something is missing. You can't quite figure out what it is, but something is lacking and it's leaving you wanting more. You miss your bubbly self, the girl who didn't have to "search for happiness", it came so naturally. You miss the friendships you had, the relationships you had, the life you had. What changed? Why are things so different? How do you find yourself again?

I know the feeling. The feeling where you so desperately want to go back to how things were 6 months ago. Back when things seemed "easy". You feel alone. You feel broken. You feel lost. You wonder every single day how you got here and where you're going. You lay in your bed and cry. You honestly don't even know why you're crying, but that seems to have become a normal thing for you. You used to never cry...and now you're lucky if you can go a few days without breaking down. You don't like this "new normal". You'd do anything to change this "new normal". But this feeling is temporary. It sure doesn't feel like it, but I promise you things WILL get better.

And there's something you really need to know...

Beautiful girl, you haven't lost yourself...you're on the journey to find yourself. Your true self. But right now you're stuck in the in-between, and trust me, it's not a fun place to be. The in-between is full of uncertainty and it's a daily rollercoaster, but you will get through it. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but it will happen. If you haven't listened to Alessia Cara's song, "Not Today", go do it right now. (Not Today - Alessia Cara) You better have listened to it before you kept reading. Now let these words sink in...

"One day I'll swear the pain will be a blip
I'll have the hardest time recalling it
I'll be the king of misery management
But surely not today."

You're still the same girl you were 6 months ago, but you're changing... you can't expect to grow without changing, right? You'll find your bubbly self again. You'll find that happiness again. Don't give up until you do.