Hey! How are you? Oh, not doing so well? I’m sorry to hear that but yet at the same time, I’m kind of not. You see, while you were busy trying to make my life a living hell, I was busy trying to keep my head afloat and now all that hard work has finally paid off. I’m doing well at my job, having a good time at school, and enjoying time with my friends and family.
I wasn’t always this way though. While I was at my lowest you decided to attack me, when I had done nothing to you. You would say mean things about the way I look, how I acted (even though I did nothing out of the ordinary), and you even decided to attack me for who my friends are. You knew nothing about me, what was going on in my life, and yet you still continued to make rude comments.
While you were doing all of these mean things to me, I couldn’t help but feel sorry for you. Sorry that you were so insecure with yourself, that you had to hide your own pain by hurting others. While I was at the forefront of your rage, I slowly became more and more like a hermit crab afraid to come out of my shell. I no longer danced when my favorite song came on, laughed at the funny jokes I heard or even talked to people who weren’t my best friends for a while. What once was a safe haven for me, you came into like a hurricane ready to uproot that feeling of comfort and everything else that stood in your way.
I know that while I am still living day to day, as if nothing happened, even the thought of you and all the cruel things that you did will remind me why I don’t let people know the truth of my life. What you didn’t know, was that each night I prayed for you. I prayed that you would overcome your enemies, even if I was one. I prayed that you would find what truly made you happy, instead of looking at the bottom of the bottle for the answers that you would never find. I hoped that you would eventually see the injustice in your actions, that you would grow up and realize that you can’t take your anger out on others. I hoped and prayed that in order for me to get some relief, you would also find peace and comfort as well.
So while you thought you were tearing me down, you only made me stronger. Thank you, good luck in life. I hope that you find what is truly the source of your pain, maybe one day you will find happiness just like I have.
- The Girl That You Tried To Ruin
