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My Future Is Uncertain, And That's Ok

I don't necessarily know the direction in which my life is headed, and I'm slowly coming to terms with that.

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My Future Is Uncertain, And That's Ok
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When I graduated high school, I thought I knew my path. I knew I was going to college to be a teacher, I thought I was in a great relationship, and I had wonderful friends and family to support me. My hand was dealt, and I was confident.

Now, all of a sudden I'm a junior in college, and I'm not entirely sure where I want to end up. I started asking questions and coming up with inferences that didn't make sense to answer the questions I didn't know the answers to.

Right now, I work in a restaurant, and eventually, I want to work at a middle or high school, brightening young minds and fostering a love for education. But what if that isn't what I'm meant to do with my life? What if there is something bigger and better for me out there that I just haven't discovered yet? And what if, by the time I figure out where I'm supposed to be, it's too late to get there?

I haven't had any romantic involvement in nearly a year, and I worry that I may never again. What if the one relationship I was in was my only chance at love and I was supposed to work through it? What if I never find someone that I want to spend the rest of my life with where the feeling is reciprocated? I don't want to forget what it feels like to be loved.

I've realized that I need to take a step back and remember that I'm only 19 years old. Still technically a teenager. I have plenty of time to figure out my purpose, and one day I will. That day is just not today, and I am slowly but surely learning to accept that it is okay to not know. It is okay to worry, and it is okay to be uncertain.

I have to get better at focusing on the present. I know that I spend way too much time worrying about the future, and the simple truth is that the future is unpredictable. Realistically, I have no idea what curve balls life is going to throw my way, and I won't know how to hit them until they're pitched.

It does me no good to spend every waking moment worrying about when I should move out and how quickly I need to find a job after college. While I'm worrying, I'm letting some of the best years of my life slip right past me.

I will get to the future. I will have a house and a husband and kids and a job one day, but right now I don't need to think about that. The pieces of the puzzle will fall into place exactly when and where they're supposed to. I'm doing a pretty damn good job navigating the world of adulthood with which my experience is severely limited, and I will find the right person when the time is right. I will land the best job for me when the best opportunity presents itself.

Good things come to those who wait, and sometimes the best things in life come so unexpectedly. I have to get out of my own head and live a little.

Jordin Sparks says to take it one step at a time, and take it one step at a time I will.

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