To The Future Me At The End Of Her Sophomore Year

Dear Future Me,

I hope this finds you well and happy. I hope your finals aren’t eating at you and stressing you out. Are you enjoying the spring weather, like I am right now? I hope so.

I thought a letter to my future self would be a great way to keep track of my hopes, dreams, expectations, and progresses. So, I’ll tell you a little bit about myself as I am now. Feel free to notice how much you’ve (hopefully) improved.

Right now, I’m taking my finals at the end of freshman year. I am excited about the last paper and the relaxing time that I hope summer turns out to be. I am hoping my GPA remains the same and also making lofty plans for how I’m going to spend the summer.

Right now, I have like seven awesome volunteer positions lined up, but I still have to pick and choose which three I’ll actually end up doing.

I just wonder about you. How did you handle the nearly impossible schedule I selected for you? Was taking Organic Chemistry THAT hard or was everyone just exaggerating about the difficulty level?

Right now, I’m under the impression that it’s not that hard. I wonder what you think now.

How did doing research go? Did you end up loving it and finding a part of yourself? And the volunteering stint at the hospital; how did that go? Did you have fun, make friends and impact lives? I sure hope you did.

Honestly, I worry about you. I worry that I’ve set out too many expectations and commitments for you to handle. I’m scared that you’ll drop the ball. However, I am deciding to trust in your decision making and intelligence.

I believe in you. I know that you know how to handle stressful situations. Remember what we like to say about choking on greatness.

How were all the 9:30 am classes in the fall semester? Did you actually end up going to the gym or doing yoga every morning or is that some fantasy that I just cooked up? I hope that you and Zar still get along, now that you're roomies.

How did boxing go? Did you join the fight team or are you still a wimpy kid? And how are your French and Spanish endeavors going? Are you fluent yet? Was being a mentor awesome or do you regret it?

Ang how the heck was Avengers 4? I cried too hard when I saw the 3rd one so I hope they answered all our questions!

I have so many burning questions for you, but I know now you have more important issues to handle. Your MCAT is next year and knowing me, you’re probably already freaked out. I come to you now, as the voice of wisdom from the past.

Start outrageously early and take it slow. Bring your friends into it too and have study/cry sessions. Don’t you dare forget to pray. You pray, you work and you push forward until you get that score you want so dearly.

I really hope when you read this, you’ll have a smile on your lips and a song in your heart.

Keep being the woman you try to be… Never compromise your integrity or forget how much you are worth.

Sow that lovely smile of yours like a seed in others. Let them know you. Let them love you too.

With all the love,

Me at end of Freshman year, 2018.