Dear "Friend" --

We have been friends for a very long time now and you probably know me better than most of my other friends. Ever since I went off to college and you've been busy as well, I have noticed that our paths have gone different ways. You've made new friends, found new interests and I have done the same only about 300+ miles away. Now this is fine but I have noticed our communication has been cut to a minimum. This makes me sad. For the first couple months I was away, you texted me occasionally and Snapchatted me and when I came back for breaks, we hung out at least once or twice while I was home. Here we are almost two years later and I barely hear from you anymore. The only times I hear from you are when you need something and it's starting to eat at me.

I have been there for you through all of your ups and downs, I wiped your tears away when dumb boys broke your heart, I have listened to you vent about everything and anything. But where have you been lately? When I hit rock bottom you were nowhere to be found until you needed me. Then when I was unable to help you, you once again disappeared. I guess you want to be friends but don't know how to be one.

Don't get me wrong, you still mean the world to me and want to be your friend but I don't know how to be there for someone who can't be there for me in the same aspect. I care about you a lot but it's hard to keep caring when you obviously don't care enough about me. It's emotionally exhausting and toxic and I don't need that to weigh me down along with everything else that's going on in my life. Maybe you would know that if you picked up the phone and talked to me very once in a while when you didn't need something from me.

In order to make this friendship stay whole, I need you to understand that I can't keep the seesaw balanced without you being on it. If I put in the effort, it only stays balanced if you put in the effort too.

I miss you.

Sincerely,

The sad, lonely friend who has always been there.