College is one of those things that was always in the back of my mind. Growing up, I was always so excited to go off and study something that I was truly passionate about.
In high school, I never really knew what I wanted to study. I just knew that I wanted to help people in any way that I could. Senior year came and went as fast as I could blink my eyes. Then, the college decision-making process came to smack me in my face all of a sudden.
I wanted to major in a couple of different things but was never really sure exactly what I wanted to do. My senior year of high school I decided that I was going to study psychology. I was so excited to learn more about people and how I could help those in need.
Like any other college freshman, I was a kid in a candy store. I felt ready to see and conquer my college classes and get A's.
I didn't think that it was going to be hard. I thought that I was going to be able to ace my classes and join all of these fun clubs and make a big group of friends with no problem. I was in for a rude awakening. I struggled and I fell, but I always got back up again and that is something that I am so proud of.
I started being more confident in myself and I was genuinely satisfied with who I was as a person. I was always so insecure, with my weight, body, looks, and even my personality. I realized that this is what made me, me!
Finally, I was back on my feet and I was in love with myself again. By this time, I was already only a couple of classes away from graduating from college. I felt a strong sense of shock and anxiety. I felt that I wasted my time worrying about pointless things and focused on the past more than I should.
Now, I've come to terms with the fact that my “college life" is almost over and I have to face the real world and do big girl things. I had to remind myself why I was there in the first place.
I came to the university to get a degree in psychology, and that is what I will look back on and remember from these three years of my life. It's now my responsibility to share my knowledge with others and help in any way that I can.
The big girl world that was always so far away in my head is starting to not seem so far away anymore. In fact, it's the next step up from where I'm at right now. I still can't believe it when I think about it, but I'm confident that I'm more than ready for life outside of my dorm room that I've gotten to know so well.
Even though I'm freaking out just a little bit, I did it and I'm proud that I did it.