Growing up, whenever I thought about my future, I always pictured you right there alongside me. In fact, not only did I picture you as a part of my future but a part of my family as well. And, here we are farther apart then we've ever been before.

Your birthday has just passed. We always celebrated our birthdays together. Now you celebrate them with him. I wanted to text you, but I just couldn't do it. I'm still so mad at you. You became so consumed in him and you cut me out, and I'll never understand why. We both agreed friendship was a two-way street and we were going to make an effort to keep our friendship alive. I think the saddest part is that you just gave up somewhere along the way. You were content with the person you had in your life. You were perfectly fine with removing me altogether. And, I'll always struggle to forgive you for that.

From time to time, I often wonder what my life would be like if you were still a part of it.

A part of me knows I'm better off without you. You were always trying to find ways to drag me down in order to make yourself feel better, but, for some reason, I still feel lost without you. The simplest and littlest things remind me of you and make me wonder if you think of me too. I hope you do.

Even after all that's happened I still wish the very best for you. I hope you are doing well. I hope you are enjoying school and excelling in all your classes just like you always did. I hope you graduate college and continue to chase your dreams of becoming a teacher. I also hope your family is happy and healthy. They deserve nothing, but the best. And most of all I hope he still makes you happy and treats you right. I hope you love him with your whole heart and never want to let him go, because when you let him in you cut me out.

I'm so disappointed in you for so easily walking out of my life, but at the end of the day, you are still so important to me, I mean we've been through too much for you not to be. Even though you aren't a part of my life physically; you are still a part of my life through all the things we loved and all the times we've shared. I promised you that I'd love you no matter what happened and I truly meant that because even now I still love you and always will.

If there is anything I want you to take from this, it's that even after all that's happened between us there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you and I hope you think of me too.