Mom, I'm 20 now going on 21, I realized never really thanked you or actually apologized for all those times growing up. I still really don't know how to say any of it but I guess that's why I'm writing this. I'll try my best to get everything you deserve to hear that I never said.

I'll start off with saying thank you. Thank you for everything and when I say everything, I mean it. Thank you for being you. You always put me first when it came to certain things. Actually most of the time I was put first. You'd spend your weekends or days off driving me to whatever school activity I had that time or even to a friends house. You'd make sure growing up I got to experience any school activity I wanted if it was possible. For that I'm thankful. Another thing I'm thankful for is that you provided me with a wonderful life. You and Jeff made sure home was home. You two provided me with a home life some kids would dream of. You two took me to Alaska (the first time haha), you took me camping for most of my childhood to the campground where I made so many memories, and you'd even take in my friends as your own. For all that I thank both of you. Another thing I'm thankful for mom is you always told me to dream big and follow those dreams. You always supported those dreams too, even though they're a little messy right now. Also thank you for always being willing to support me when a guy breaks my heart or one of my friends betrays me and for saying you had a feeling about that one. You always know the right things to say in those moments, I guess that's what moms are for though. Also thanks for not letting me just do what I want when I was younger and for being somewhat strict on things cause if you weren't just a little strict who knows where I'd be now. So thank you.

My biggest thank you though for you, mother, is you never gave up on me even when you probably should of. Which leads me into what I need to apologize for. I know I never actually apologize(d) or anything like that. I just act like nothing happened and move on. Which maybe because I never know how or maybe cause I just figured you know I'm sorry. I'll try to hit everything I'm sorry for right now though.

First off, I'll say I'm sorry for all the future things that will probably happen or be said after you read this. Honestly mom, I'm sorry for never appreciating anything that you or Jeff did for me. That's my biggest sorry. I should have realized earlier how great you two were to me and still continue to be. Which leads me to my back talking. Teen girls are going to back talk, actually almost any girl but I'm extremely sorry for mine. I sometimes wouldn't realize my attitude or that I was back talking because that's just how it came out. I shouldn't have and I know I still talk with attitude sometimes but I'm working on it. Another sorry is for disappointing you. I don't want to hear I never did cause I know for a fact I did. Those are the times I expected you to give up on me but you never did and yet I still acted the same. No-ones perfect and I know you didn't expect me to be but those few times I saw it in your face that you expected better of me. I'm also sorry for not saying I love you as much as I should. I don't know why it's so hard for those three words to come out of my mouth but just know I do.

There's probably so many more things I could apologize for but those are the main things I know I need to apologize for. And I know I'll be thanking you until the day I die for so much more . I mean you're my number one fan and I couldn't ask for a better one. Thanks for raising me and teaching me how to be more like you everyday. I can't wait to be half the woman and mother you are. You're pretty awesome mom, I love you.