I am not going to lie, feelings suck.

And I'd guarantee that anyone I ask would have the same response.

One day you might be on top of the world, and the next you might be lower than low.

But... that's life. It's unfortunate and difficult but there are literally no other options.

Lately, I've been feeling all of those great things I'd rather ignore like loneliness, sadness, and overall lack of motivation.

So, what do I do?

Well, I decided to take a much needed and unplanned mental health pause. I laid in bed a lot, I cried, I pitied myself, I got angry, and I just said f%#$ it to everything and anything that wasn't food, sleep, or work.

Did I feel amazing while I was doing this? No, definitely not! I let go of my hygiene, I shirked a lot of responsibilities, and I just generally didn't care. I sat and soaked in my misery, and I let myself bring up these negative emotions and live in them. Truly live in them instead of dismissing them and running from them.

I'm infinitely blessed that I am privileged enough to have moments like this in my life, and once I pulled myself back up by the bootstraps I decided to get back to work feeling renewed and re-energized.

Sometimes, the only thing you can do is feel. Just feel it all, the good, the bad, and the even worse. It is what life is all about, after all.