Fear Is Not Respect
I did not respect you.
you tossed me around,
and when I struggled to stand,
you'd throw me back down.
I was terrified of you,
I was in excruciating pain,
I suffered and endured at such a young age.
I think you were scared
your ego would bruise.
so you made my body and mind
take your abuse.
does that make you a man,
breaking a young child?
beating her into submission?
until she can no longer smile?
because I think a man protects,
and he loves with all his heart.
he provides for his children
from the very start.
but where were you
when you weren't causing me pain?
you broke me in half,
you drove me insane.
I didn't know how to fix myself
after you left,
I was relieved you were gone
but alone with the mess.
the mess you made me.
The me that I dread.
Just because I believed
every lie you ever said.
But listen here,
I am so much more.
I'm not worthless or fat or stupid
And I sure do not belong on the floor.
I am strong.
Stronger than you'll ever be.
Because i don't need to hurt others
to feel free.
I do not respect you
or your hurtful ways.
People are disposable,
no one is a 'phase'.
I'm not scared of you anymore.
What you put me through,
I overcame.
I did it all without you,
And i'd do it again.
