Is it bad that I don't remember what my life was like before I became a fangirl? It's a terrifying thought, to say the least. I'm not saying that my memory was completely wiped when I started listening to One Direction or 5 Seconds of Summer or anything because let's be honest, that would be scary and I would be going mental. What I mean is that I don't remember having something to give me complete happiness any time they were mentioned or came up in conversation, or even having anything to relate with my friends about.

Before my fangirl lifestyle, I was boring. Not dull, or monotone-boring, but uninterested-in-anything boring. I listened to music that I highly enjoyed, but I wouldn't go cuckoo for cocoa puffs over them. Did I even have hobbies—besides band and playing "Call of Duty" with my guy friends? I don't think I did. What was my life like? How did I have friends who tolerated me? I had to have been or sore thumb or something. I never really got out of the house much and would just spend my time on Facebook or watching television to pass the time. Nothing ever caught my eye or was interesting to me. I was an awkward human being. Then, December 2011 hit and all of that changed (for the better).

1. I was happier.

You could tell I was happier because I finally found something that I was able to enjoy, regardless of being criticized on the daily for it.

2. It became easier for me to make friends.

I had always been a shy person and I had issues with making friends quickly because I never wanted to open my mouth, but I noticed there were others who liked 1D, too, and I was able to click with them. One of them even became my roommate freshman year (Shoutout to you, Madi. I love you, girl.)

3. Twitter was not as dull as I thought it was.

I refused to make a Twitter account until I was forced to for a class, however I was able to use it as an outlet. I was able to talk to others all across the nation and around the world about One Direction and I thought that was pretty cool. And a lot of them were my age which made me feel less awkward. Twitter was no longer a ridiculous social media site where people talk about what they ate, or whatever. There were people like me out there, and that was comforting to know.

4. Becoming a fangirl led me to make some of the best friends I have ever made.

Not only was it easier for me to make friends in general, but I met a few people who now mean everything and more to me. I've only known them for two years, but it doesn't matter. I trust them with my life and they're probably the best thing I that I got out of joining the fangirl life.

My fangirl lifestyle has changed me completely and not just because these beautiful musicians brought me back to life. My life beforehand was hazy and dull, and I have no idea how I was able to make it through. Things have changed since my high school days and thank goodness they did because I don't think I would've survived college if I was the same person.