Going to a University out of state has easily been one of the best decisions I have ever made. Going into my freshman year I was so excited about moving far away from home. It was all about the freedom, new experiences, and new people.
I couldn’t wait to not have mom and dad telling me what to do or hovering over me making sure I’m doing my homework. I couldn’t wait to meet a ton of new people and find the best friends that “will be in your wedding” and that “you can call any random day and pick right back up where you left off” that you’ve always told me about. I couldn’t wait for college. Now that I’m a junior, I’ve come to realize there are a few things that I need to tell you that I don’t tell you enough.
I’m sorry. To my mom, dad, sisters, and grandparents, I’m sorry I can’t be there to celebrate birthdays or any holidays besides Christmas. I’m sorry I don’t text back in time and forget to send you pictures of me at all my events. I’m sorry I can’t just sit on the couch on any old Sunday and watch football and talk with you.
Being so far away from home definitely has its disadvantages and I know you are all busy and I am busy and it’s hard to keep up with everything. Even though we can’t be there with each other for certain events and we can’t see each other and talk regularly just know I am always thinking about you and would do anything to be there.
I miss you. Wow I never thought I would admit this but I DO miss home. I miss coming home from practice after school to you asking me how my day was while cooking dinner. I miss late night drives down Bayshore Boulevard jamming out with my sisters with not a worry in the world.
I miss cuddling with the dogs while watching the Bachelor on Monday nights while talking about how crazy a person is or who we like the best. I wish I could be there for our family gatherings whether it’s birthdays or just a random Sunday night because I miss the pure craziness that occurs in our household. I miss you every single day and I hope you know that.
I love you. I know I don’t say this anywhere near as much as I should but I love all of you so much. You are my world and I don’t know what I would ever do without each and every one of you. I love how crazy, funny, and just plain weird you all are but I also love how caring, loving, compassionate, honest and loyal you are. I’m sorry I don’t tell you enough but I honestly do love you so much.
Thank you. Thank you for letting me go so far away for college and supporting me through everything. Thank you for always being there for me whether it’s good or bad. Thank you for pushing me to always try to do my best in life and encouraging me to shoot for the stars. Thank you for being my rock.
I wish I could be closer to home because of all of you. I’m sorry I can’t be there but I love you and I miss you. Thank you for everything you do for me. You are my entire heart and soul.
Love you always,Your daughter/sister/granddaughter