To the person who wasn't there when I needed them most ...

You made it seem like you were here to stay. You made it seem like you wanted to stay. You said all the right things. You made me believe it was going to work. You made me believe you cared. You pushed me to strive, be better, and believe in myself. You had a convincing act.

We were a good team. We balanced each other out. We had enough in common. We were different in the right ways. We challenged each other. We didn't make things easy, but we made it worth it.

But you didn't care enough. You didn't care to see me. You didn't care to get through the rough times. You didn't care to make an effort. You let things fall through the cracks. You let us fall through the cracks until there was nothing left of us.

You left when I needed you most. You kicked me when I was already down. You told me how your heart was broken when someone left you and dropped you like it was nothing. You were left and cut out completely by someone else. You said you hated that. Well, look what you did to me. You are now what you hated.

It broke my heart, but I am okay. I don’t understand all the reasons why you walked away from us, but I’ve come to terms with the fact that some people are only a part of our lives for a little while. Then they leave and then it hurts.

But thank you.

Thank you for leaving me.

Thank you for showing me how much better I deserve. I thought you were too good to be true. I thought I deserved you and that you were the answers to my prayers, but I was wrong. You didn't deserve me. I don't need a savior. I never did. What I needed was someone to be there for me when I didn't have enough in me to keep going, someone who respected me, and treated me well. I needed someone who doesn't go back on their word and their promise to be there no matter what. You even said if things didn't work out, then you'd hope I'd still be able to only say good things about you and you'd be a great friend. You are no friend to me. Friends are there for you no matter what. Friends pick up your broken pieces and help put you back together. You are not that.

I hope the next person that gives their time to you, you value it. Don't waste their time, like you wasted mine.

Sincerely,

I forgive you, but I want to forget you