Let me start off by saying this, I do not hate you. In all honesty, I wish nothing but the best for you. It took me a long time to realize this, but the best thing for both of us may just be to not have each other. God puts everyone in our lives for a reason. The reasons may not be what we perceived them to be in the beginning, but maybe the reason was to teach us a lesson or to guide us down a new path. Do you remember when we would talk about our future lives? You told me what job you wanted, what kind of house you wanted, even what you wanted your kids to look and act like. I want that for you, in fact, I am rooting for you. I may not be rooting for you on the sidelines or the front row, but I'm way in the back somewhere cheering you on. I'm even going to be there when you are going through hardships, but rather you being in my arms crying while I hug you, you're going to be in my prayers. I want to thank you for everything that we have been through together, and teaching me life lessons you probably don't even know you taught me. So let's go back to what I said in the beginning, I said: "I do not hate you". I mean that. I may have hated what you did, hated what you said, and hated how it ended. But, I also loved what we had, loved things you said, and loved the memories we had together. Nobody can replace those, and I hope you can make new ones with your new best friend. So the next time you're in the car and you hear our song, smile and throw a car concert. Next time you see the boy I had a crush on, laugh and walk away thinking of how awkward I would have just acted. And next time you think of the horrible fight we got into, think about how we both forgave each other and that's all in our past now. So go on, and start applying for those jobs and keep planning your perfect life on Pinterest, because it's gonna happen. I mean come on, if anyone knows you, it's me and I know you can do this.

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