I am surrounded by a lot of really good friends that love me for me, but I used to be surrounded by toxic friendships. What’s weird is that I was perfectly happy. I thought she was the best friend I had ever had. I was blind to the way that she was constantly putting me down.
It wasn’t until after she decided that she was done with me that I began to see how bad the friendship really was.
For years I put up with her always talking down to me and talking bad about the people that I liked. It seemed like I was always the one apologizing and picking up the pieces of our friendship. She never apologized for anything even after she slept with the guy that I loved. She didnt apologize. I did. What reason did I have for apologizing for the way I feel?
I tried to fix our friendship after every obstacle that we hit, never realzing that she wasnt doing the same. I knew our friendship was over when she didnt come to my graduation. We had been through so much, but I refused to keep trying to fix things.
It was only after our friendship ended that I realized that I was truly unhappy. I was always trying to please everyone around me and never doing anything that made me happy.
Now I live my life for me surrounded byy people that encourage me and help me to be the best version of myself.
That toxic friendship almost ruined me. I didnt know who I was anymore, but I started to change towards the end. I couldnt handle the rudeness and the disrespect towards other. I started calling her out on it. I didnt want to be that person anymore.
I got out of my toxic friendship and now I have a new group of friends that support everything that I do. They help guide me down the right path and be a better person. For them I am thankful.