Stop. Stop it. Quit trying to pry your way in to something you know is only making it worse in the end. Why now? Why try so hard now?

Oh wait, maybe its because my wedding is coming up. Maybe it's because you want to be there to get praised in a spot that was not deserved. Maybe? No.

You do not deserve to walk me down the aisle. You do not deserve the right to be praised on a day that means more to me than anything right now. One of the most important days of my life. You do not deserve the explanation, time or voice to hear me out. Because you have "heard me out", many times. What would be different now?

Now because I'm getting married? Now because you realize that you messed up. Messed up more than you ever have. You dont deserve this. You havent earned that spot. What did she tell you? That woman you chose over me? She told you, "wait until after to fix it, let her be, less stress". And now? Now you realize that she is wrong? Now you realize you should have listened and taken me more seriously? NOW?!

You let me walk away, crying, hurt and emotional. All because she chose to be stupid and drink and drive. You let me leave without saying I love you. You let me leave in tears because of words you said. You let me walk away.

I will never be able to face you about any of this. I just feel like I'm giving in if I do. And im tired of feeling like that. Tired of giving chances, for them to not be taken seriously. Tired of sticking up for others only for it to get thrown back in my face. I am done. More done than I was before.

But now, since the most important day of my life is coming up you think you can fix it. You think you need to be there. You think you deserve to be there. You think I will regret not having you there. Truth is, i wont. The day will be less drama filled with out you.

No I'm not banning you from my life. No I'm not saying goodbye for the last time. Using my little sister against me to say goodbye is ridiculous. What do you not understand? Actually, how do you not understand? How do you not understand what you've done? Why should I have to explain it again! Why should I waste my breath?

Time. They say time fixes everything. But you just dont get that. I need time. So please. Stop. Enough is enough.