To the boy who never loved me.

First off, I want to say, you suck.

My biggest regret is not listening to everyone, how stupid could I be? Is it bad I hope you suffer? Is it bad I would rather have you in physical pain than be happy with someone else? Is it bad I hope no one ever trusts you again? If so, I'm not sorry.

The fact the you knew how vulnerable I was, and still took advantage of my emotion tells me you never cared. I'm not even sad anymore, I'm just angry. Telling someone you love them, while lying to them, does not really add up, does it?

When we first got together I felt like I was flying, I loved everything I loved my life I wanted everyone to be as happy as I did. That only lasted about a month. As soon as you got mad when I hangout with anyone but you, I started to feel that amazing feeling disappear.

Months went on and I gave my full and undivided attention to you and only you. I missed out on so much but I felt like I owed you. You made me feel guilty, like I was a bad person for living my own life without you.

The first time I caught you cheating, you said it was a misunderstanding and "I was just messing around with her, I was going to show you the messages because it was a joke" So why did I have to find them myself two months after you told this girl you had feelings for her?

I can't even count how many times I've been called crazy for being upset about emotional cheating.

"He never had sex with her, so why are you so upset?"

"That's not cheating."

But it is, and from experience, it's worse. All cheating is bad, but with emotional cheating, there are actual feeling involved rather than a one night stand or random hook ups at a party with people you might never see again.

I let this go on for almost a year I was too afraid to lose someone who didn't even love me. As much as I miss it, I would never go back to such manipulative relationship again.