I don’t like school. In fact, I hate it with a raging passion.
I was a straight A student in high school. High school was easy to me and I honestly did not mind going to school every day. That being said, I was well aware that college wasn’t going to be a walk in the park. I knew I was going to be staying up until the early hours of the morning finishing papers or studying for exams. I knew I was going to spend four years a little stressed but I thought it was going to be worth it.
But to tell you the truth, I was not prepared to hate school as much as I currently do and I’m not sure if continuing if worth losing what little bit of sanity I have left.
I’m tired of school and I don’t want to be a student anymore. College is not fun.
I came to college to learn and earn a degree to get a good job. So far, I have learned how to bullshit my way through papers and presentations and give the bare minimum on assignments. It’s not because I’m lazy… It’s because I literally don’t understand why I am even in college anymore and I honestly don’t have the time to put 100% of my effort into each and every assignment or exam.
Five classes a semester for four years to get that pretty Bachelor’s degree doesn’t sound bad at all. But it is. When you work a part time job, have three exams, a paper to write, and a presentation to give all in one week, it’s incredibly easy to feel like you are literally suffocating. The temptation of throwing in the towel and calling it quits increases with every passing day.
What’s even worse is everyone just assumes that college is easy. Just because I was a carefree and successful student in high school doesn’t mean that I don’t sit at my desk and cry because I can’t figure out how to do my statistics homework. It doesn’t mean I can sit down and write a 10-page paper in two hours. Because honestly, I can sit in front of my laptop for six hours and only complete two pages.
At this point, I just want to be done. Dropping out isn’t an option but man, I wish it was. I’ve never been a quitter but the stress of school has just become so overwhelming. I’m not happy being a student and I can’t wait to start the next chapter of my life… Which I apparently cannot do without a degree. So for now, I'm looking forward to the day I finally get handed my degree and I get the hell out of here.
