I Don't Know What I'm Doing When I Graduate, And It's Still OK

I Don't Know What I'm Doing When I Graduate, And It's Still OK

Whatever I thought would happen, it still hasn't yet.

I don't know what I expected. Did I think that one of the many career fairs I've attended would lead me to the perfect first job? Did I envision myself reading the want ads in a newspaper over a cup of coffee, circling possibilities in red? Maybe I thought one of the places I've interned during my summer breaks would offer me a permanent position.

Whatever I thought would happen, it still hasn't yet.

Part of the situation is due to my course of study. I chose to major in History and English, knowing full well that liberal arts degrees are often more valuable for the things you learn than for the career path to which they lead. And I was OK with that; I knew I wasn't cut out to be a nurse or an engineer, and I was confident that History and English would give me translatable skills to do something I loved someday.

The question has become, what is it I love? I love museums; maybe I'll work in one. I love to travel, so it would be so cool to work abroad. I can spend hours reading and analyzing literature, so maybe I'll go to grad school and become a professor. I feel strong moral and political convictions, I could really make a difference for an organization I care about.

The problem is, even though I know I'm not locked into my first job, I still have so many ideas about where to go and what to do, and I'm still not sure which path to take first. I feel like I need a bit more time to explore the possibilities and see if any doors open or close. I know that I will work hard and gain experience wherever I end up, but I want to make sure I know what I'm doing before I commit to something.

So what now? Well, the summer stretches out before me, and after four years of school interspersed with periods of working breaks, I think I fancy a bit of a rest. I want to take some time off from intellectual labor. I might fit in a few road trips to visit family and friends, which would be harder to do if I already had a job lined up.

I also might finally get a chance to try my hand at something I've always wanted to do: work as a barista. I always thought it would be so cool to learn how to make espresso beverages and spend extended amounts of time in my favorite hometown coffee shop, and now seems like the perfect time to finally DO IT.

Living at home for a few more months will also just give me a chance to spend some much-needed quality time with the family before my situation changes more drastically. I can't wait to make dinner with them, go to church together, and experience some summer fun like we haven't in years since I've been in school or away for internships. We've always been close, and I know we always will be, but I really want to invest some time into these relationships before I make myself busy all over again.

It's not going to be easy, especially as I see friends and classmates getting recruited for positions and accepting the jobs of their dreams. As is the case with prospective college grads, I have already been getting SO many questions about my plans, and I've just had to smile and respond with a graceful, diplomatic "still checking out my options." I know I'll find something soon, that this is the right path for me, and that ultimately my worth as a person is not in my employment situation after graduation.

So, if you're reading this, no need to ask me -- but feel free to help me pray that I'll end up where I'm supposed to be!

Cover Image Credit: Olivia Corso

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The Truth About Young Marriage

Different doesn't mean wrong.

When I was a kid, I had an exact picture in my mind of what my life was going to look like. I was definitely not the kind of girl who would get married young, before the age of 25, at least.

And let me tell you, I was just as judgmental as that sentence sounds.

I could not wrap my head around people making life-long commitments before they even had an established life. It’s not my fault that I thought this way, because the majority opinion about young marriage in today’s society is not a supportive one. Over the years, it has become the norm to put off marriage until you have an education and an established career. Basically, this means you put off marriage until you learn how to be an adult, instead of using marriage as a foundation to launch into adulthood.

When young couples get married, people will assume that you are having a baby, and they will say that you’re throwing your life away — it’s inevitable.

It’s safe to say that my perspective changed once I signed my marriage certificate at the age of 18. Although marriage is not always easy and getting married at such a young age definitely sets you up for some extra challenges, there is something to be said about entering into marriage and adulthood at the same time.

SEE ALSO: Finding A Husband In College

Getting married young does not mean giving up your dreams. It means having someone dream your dreams with you. When you get lost along the way, and your dreams and goals seem out of reach, it’s having someone there to point you in the right direction and show you the way back. Despite what people are going to tell you, it definitely doesn’t mean that you are going to miss out on all the experiences life has to offer. It simply means that you get to share all of these great adventures with the person you love most in the world.

And trust me, there is nothing better than that. It doesn’t mean that you are already grown up, it means that you have someone to grow with.

You have someone to stick with you through anything from college classes and changing bodies to negative bank account balances.

You have someone to sit on your used furniture with and talk about what you want to do and who you want to be someday.

Then, when someday comes, you get to look back on all of that and realize what a blessing it is to watch someone grow. Even after just one year of marriage, I look back and I am incredibly proud of my husband. I’m proud of the person he has become, and I’m proud of what we have accomplished together. I can’t wait to see what the rest of our lives have in store for us.

“You can drive at 16, go to war at 18, drink at 21, and retire at 65. So who can say what age you have to be to find your one true love?" — One Tree Hill
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Summer And Jobs

Working summers doesn't have to be tedious.


Like many other college students, I was ready for summer but was kinda bummed that I had to work. Its not that I didn't like where I was working, I actually was really lucky to be working in a hospital environment but I just hated being alone all summer from 9-5. I've had this job for a few years now and a few other paid interns came and went but I never really connected with any of them. This year is different though.

I got really lucky to have another intern work with me that was very similar to me. The tasks we got were always simple but they were made to be more fun because I got to do them while talking with someone else. Now I actually enjoy and look forward to going to work.

The key to finding a good job is finding one that you enjoy doing and one that will help you gain knowledge that will help you out with future career plans. Working with friends also make tasks enjoyable! I would be careful with working with your friend however because if your job needs you to be serious and focused, being around your best friends may distract you from that.

Another thing that definitely makes summer jobs more enjoyable are taking breaks! It is your summer vacation after all! I'm not saying don't take a day off just to sit around, but if you make plans with family and friends, take a Friday off and enjoy the warm weather and good company! Employers understand that us college students and on break and have lives, they are usually very lenient with days off!

If you have to do a summer job to make money to live off of or pay for college, the best thing to do is look at the big picture. If you don't enjoy your job but can't afford to quit, remember that the money if going to help you out a lot. Also, this job is probably only for the summer right? So it's not permanent my friend! Get through these annoying few weeks and you will be back at college, taking steps for a bigger and brighter future.

Summer jobs are tough, I know, but make the most of it! And don't forget to enjoy it whenever you can!!!


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