Sometimes I need someone to remind me that, at the end of the day, I am here and I am enough.
I’m not anywhere near perfect and my decisions are going to be flawed and weird and result in things that I would have never expected, but ultimately I’m just a human being.
I would like to think that I am a positive and happy person, but I also know that I have some pretty damn crappy days. They are rare, and I am grateful for that, but I think it is fair to assume that if I have damn crappy days every once in a while then other people do, too.
It makes me sad knowing that there are other people who are having sucky days, but what makes me angry is the fact that they feel like they have to be okay. I’ve heard so many people say “suck it up” and “get over it” and maybe there’s a time and place for those words, like there is a time and place for everything, but when I hear those words what floods my head is that whoever says them just doesn’t get it.
They don’t get that it is completely okay to not be okay. You don’t have to be strong all of the time. You don’t have to have everything figured out. It’s okay to be mad, confused, angry or sad.
If you’re OK 24/7 then you’re doing something wrong. Life is about screwing up occasionally, and being lost every now and then. It’s a process and a hard one.
It’s difficult to separate yourself from the expectation society creates that people have to act and feel a certain way…that you have to be great and your face has to look happy.
People say that life is too short so you don’t have time to be angry or sad, but life is the longest thing you have. You can take a moment to make sure that you have some time to be everything you need to be regardless of what other people think.
At the end of the day, it’s not about what other people think. Maybe they think you’re complaining too much or that whatever you’re dealing with is insignificant. But what really matters is that whatever is going on is affecting you. It is significant to you.
Like I said before, sometimes I need someone to remind me that I am here and I am enough because once I remember this, I call to mind the fact that by not being okay I am embracing my humanity and the life I have.
I am allowed to not be okay because it doesn’t take anything away from the person I am, but rather helps me build on the person I want to be. I want to do better and be better and I can’t do that if everything is bottled in or if everything is perfect all of the time.
I’ve embraced that it’s OK to not be OK. But I want to tell you that it’s OK, too.
