The definition of contradiction by Merriam Webster Dictionary is: the act of saying something that is opposite or very different in meaning to something else.
I am a walking contradiction, to say the least. I say one thing, and can do the complete opposite and have no guilt whatsoever. Whether it’s regarding school, work, or my interest in guys, I cannot seem to stay on track with what I say or do. This current lifestyle has also been proven to get myself into a pickle in more ways than one.
This is the case especially when it comes to guys, for the longest time, I thought having a significant other would make my wildest dreams come true, and somehow we’d rule the world together. Yet when the opportunity of a significant other presents itself, I shun away from the idea completely and convince myself that being single, flirty, and thriving is better than anyone can have to offer me. The saying “nice guys finish last” has never been more relevant than it has been to my life. I’m not intentionally trying to hurt them, it just happens.
Catching the drift here? I contradict myself daily with this notion alone, and let’s face, it I’m just getting started.
Coming to realize that the word “contradiction” describes my current situation, I have also learned to accept the fact that being indecisive is okay in my life timeline. After all, I’m a college student who has just moved away for the first time and is enjoying the freedom of staying out past 2 a.m., regretting that decision instantly when 7 a.m. comes around.
Not knowing what I want right now this minute when it comes to who I want to surround myself with is okay, because there isn’t actually pressure to figure it out. Granted, there are enough articles, and self-help books out there to help “guide” who you should surround yourself with, but nothing is set in stone.
That’s the beauty of life isn’t it? Not having a handbook to guide people through the confusion of their late teens and early twenties. That’s where I’m at, some may call it a “gypsy soul” but really it’s the diary of a girl who is indecisive.
It gets bad especially when people ask me what I’m doing for the weekend, like I don’t even know what I’m going to do in the next five minutes, how do I know what I’m going to do this weekend? This also comes with being an indecisive girl.
So for now, I’m going to ride the roller-coaster of life, not knowing who or what I will be meeting in the future. But knowing somehow I’ll contradict the situation, and probably be indecisive about it as well.
Which poses the real question...is this article one big contradiction about me being indecisive? Riddle that in your head for a minute or two. Then, contradict yourself with what you just thought about.
Welcome to the world of an indecisive girl.
