I just wanted to type this up. Not just for me, but for everyone else who might be going through what I am going through at the moment. With trying new things, getting out of your comfort zone, and trying to get rid of the Demons in your head.
There are currently Demons in our heads, because we are scared, and we are afraid. Afraid to try new things, afraid of ourselves, and afraid of being judged. All our lives we have been judged by every single thing we have done/still do. It is a very horrible feeling to have things in our head giving us things to bring us down or make us have anxiety.
We don't feel safe from the judgement, from the Demons in our head. We just want to be happy for once in our life, but the Demons always get the best of us. They always make us fall down, they never let us get back up from the ground we have fallen down on. We always feel like no one wants to help us at all, but people do want to help us.
We close ourselves off from the real world, and just keep listening to the Demons in our heads, and don't pay attention to anything or anyone else. With the right group of friends, those friends will turn into family. They won't let us beat ourselves up. They listen to us, and they listen to what we want to say about the Demons in our heads. When we tell our family about the Demons in our heads they don't judge us. They beat it out of us.
We are finally starting to feel happy again, but the Demons are still there. The Demons are making us not feel like ourselves, and they are making us think we will lose people. They are making us feel like we are not good enough, but we are good enough, though. We are good enough to do our best, and to be truly ourselves. Yes, the Demons will still be there, and we just have to believe in ourselves to get rid of them. we just need someone to beat the Demons out with us. Hopefully, we found that someone already.
"And while she never felt quite normal, she was nowhere near crazy. She just loved too much. Choosing to see the world through her heart, instead of her eyes." ~ Jessica Michelle.