I feel like college is just a trial period sometimes. We are expected to have jobs and get an education simultaneously, and yet still somehow maintain a social life. I feel torn, forced to pick two out of three and everyday my decision usually changes. So how do we prioritize? Most of the time we don't, we procrastinate at almost an expert level and from there we get lost.

I think I'm in my lost phase right now. I have a job, I'm taking two summer classes and not to mention it's summer! I feel this upward expectation to be making the best of my summer, but I have the obligation of continuing my education to stay on track. Each one of my priorities are fine on their own, and each of them have their own enjoyable aspects. There are valid reasons to why I have chosen to take on each one of them; but once I put all of them together, I started to crumble.

Right about now I'm remembering my mom's advice to not overload myself, and to take things easy this summer. I really wish I would have listened to her right about now. There are three big aspects of my life this summer that I have to maintain and I feel myself under an immense amount of pressure to stay on top of it. But honestly, this feeling is in full force year round. Sure, it's a little different because it's summer but each semester introduces the same juggling, spastic version of myself with a series of different challenges. I'd like to take a moment to say thanks, Mom. You totally told me so. But this is all a part of college.

We have high expectations and even higher desires to want to be better. Let's face it y'all, we wouldn't be in college if we didn't have that urge to want to be more than who we are at this very moment. I hope this is a part of what our parents wanted for us, but I don't think there has ever been an open communication between parent and child about how we choose to juggle our crazy lives. I guess we can only start explaining ourselves from here.

Mom, Dad, it's hard. Way harder than you think it is, and I don't know if I can find the exact words to explain what that means. You put a lot of pressure on me to be great, because you know I can be. But, that pressure is a little too much sometimes. When I decide to change my major for the fourth time please don't be mad because that means I'm one step closer to where I want to be. When I get a C in a class, I don't need the scolding. I've already been doing that all semester long because that happened to be one of the hardest classes I ever took. I'm trying my best, and sometimes it wont seem good enough but believe me when I say I'm trying. I'm going to be afraid to ask for help, and I'm going to be too stubborn to ask for it too. I appreciate everything you did to get me to this point, but just know that when I juggle these responsibilities and it doesn't meet your expectations, that I'm doing it to survive.

College is a lot to take in, and we only have four years to do it. So bare with us. We're cringing just as much as you are when we make those bad grades. We're trying, we're struggling and we're even failing sometimes. But we're also making it work, even if we are dying a little bit inside. Trust us on this one!