I still think about you. t’s been a few years, so it’s not often, but when I do think about you I can’t help but miss you. We had so many good times together. Whether we were lounging by the pool and reading magazines or singing along to our favorite bands in the car, you always made our time together fun. Remember the time I laughed so hard over something you said that I wet my pants? You were laughing so much over the fact that I needed your sweatshirt to cover up my mistake that I didn’t feel as embarrassed. Or remember how we were so close that people sometimes said we were a couple? We found that hilarious. I know we weren’t friends for years and years like other people, but I felt so close to you. Our connection was something I needed at the time and I appreciate the laughter we shared. But now we aren’t friends at all and we don’t talk. In fact, we’re on opposite sides of the country now. But I still think of you. I wonder how your volleyball career is going. I loved supporting you at games or bragging about you on Twitter when you made a national team. I wonder how your life experiences are going. We were friends at a time when neither of us had so much as kissed a boy, so I remember the hours we spent talking about what our future relationships would look like. Are you dating anyone? Is everything good with your family? I care. Even now I want the best for you in everything that you do. I know you were the one who ended our friendship, but it’s okay. We were young and stupid and made mistakes. I want you to know I don’t blame you for ending it. I was immature and too focused on a boy whose name I barely remember. I neglected our friendship. I know I did. We were best friends at a pinnacle point in our lives and so much was happening. Even now I wish things were different. I miss you. But I know you aren’t the same person I remember you to be, and I’m not either. We’ve grown older. Things have happened that changed who I am. I have a boyfriend now, I’m transferring to a new college, and I don’t have the same interests as before. You’re probably the same way. It’s bittersweet to think that we will probably never ever be friends again. Sometimes if I’m feeling especially sad I’ll cry, but other times I’ll smile. We had so many good times together that I choose to think of them over the negatives. I hope you’re well. I hope that you achieve everything you aspire for in your life. I’m sorry we couldn’t be friends a little longer. I believe that everything happens for a reason though, and I believe that you helped me realize how valuable good friends are. So to my ex-best friend, have a good life. I still think about you. Take care.

Love,

Your old best friend