Dear Lonely Girl,
I relate to you when you feel like you’ll never find someone to love you. I relate to you when you think you’re better off alone, then dealing with some crap guy who’s going to treat you like dirt and play games. You’d whether not play games instead of getting your heart broken. So, you don’t even try to date, yet you still hope that your Prince Charming will come into your life one day. Being alone is much safer than kissing a hundred frogs until you find your prince. Your whole life you’ve felt like you’re not the prettiest or the skinniest compared to other girls your age.
But again, you love, love and hope that one day you’ll find someone who will make you feel like your floating. Like you’re the only woman on earth, you want them to look at you like you’re the 8th wonder of the world and when you’re with them time stops.
One of my greatest fears is spending the rest of my life alone. I fear that there will be no one there to hold my hand when I die. Or to celebrate joyous moments in my life when I’m the only one in my family left. I’m sure that you feel the same.
I am very shy and at times I can be introverted, which I feel hides the real me. Also, being the one who initiates something with a guy scares the bloody hell out of me. So more likely than not, you’ll never in a million years see me doing anything like that.
Even, if he’s the one to make the first move you hope that you don’t come off as too “boring” and that he will like you.
Because of your own insecurities you’ve thought that no guy would find you attractive anyway. While, people tell you that your beautiful you don’t feel it and you sur as hell don’t see it. But, you hope that someone else will see what you don’t.
I know what it feels like when you see pictures of your friends on social media and they didn’t invite you. Whether or not your super close to them or not. If you question (even jokingly) where’s my invite and they make the excuse that you live too far away so I thought you would say no.
While the distance would more than likely, have made you think twice about going. And there are times when you quite enjoy being alone with coloring books, a book, or Netflix It would have still been nice to have been thought about.
So, all of the feelings that you have with being too timid to approach a guy, feeling like no one will find you attractive in their eyes and always feeling like an outsider looking in. I get you and I relate.
I hope one day in the near future both of our prayers are answered.
Sincerely,
Just Like You
