Our last hang out session didn’t end as I had planned; you decided to die in my arms, which was not cool! I forgive you though, only because I love you! So as you probably know because, I’m assuming you’re one of my guardian angels (you just can’t get enough of me huh!?) I’m out in Los Angeles pursuing a degree in Fashion Design at this AMAZING school called The Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising. This is all relatively new to me. 4 years ago I had no idea that I would be in California, let alone learning draping techniques, cut and sew methods, and all the rest of this fancy designer stuff.
It all feels right. There’s this deep knowing within me that this path has been specifically paved for me. When I work on the designs for my clothing company, or when I do sketches, or think of ideas, everything comes to me so effortlessly; I feel like I’m in the flow, or “tuned in, tapped in, turned on” as Abraham-Hicks would say (she is a spiritual teacher who channels). Since we’re on the subject of channeling, it feels like every time I create something related to fashion, or anytime I have a brilliant idea, it seems that you are behind it somehow. I know when you were here on earth, I had no interest in sewing or in fashion at all for that matter, even though that was your life and we were so close. So now maybe since you’re not here this could be our way of staying close to one another; I know how much you loved to sew and to create and now that is exactly what I will be doing. I would have thought Mom, or Auntie M, or Jackie would have picked up your trade, but low and behold it was me. I think it’s ironic and funny because well. there aren’t too many guys in this industry, especially not with backgrounds in football. I hope these girls don’t distract me J but, I’m sure you will be there to ward off any perceived interferences. Hey!, you could be like my fairy god-grandmother. I like that idea!
This whole life and death thing is crazy! I mean I can feel your presence sometimes and it comes seemingly out of nowhere; remember when you decided to show up at my campus tour of FIDM, which caused me to steadfastly proceed to the bathroom and cry in overwhelment... Think that appearance could have waited until later? Just kidding, I was happy to “feel” that you were there with me! You have made me realize how much of a comedy life really is!
I think you set all this up. I think you’re working on my behalf from beyond the grave (que the twilight zone music). I think that you’re “up there” guiding and directing me. I think there is a very big part of you silently dwelling within me and although I miss you very much, I find comfort in being able to feel you with each beat of my heart.
Oh I almost forgot to ask you a coupe questions. How’s the food in heaven? Can you fly? What’s the deal with ghosts and why are they so angry? They can go through walls and levitate, which in my opinion is total COOL! What do you do all day? God is a girl isn’t she?
I love you dearly, and I miss you just as much but I have a feeling that we will become very close during this new chapter of my life. So bye until next time!! Love you, love you, love you!
PS - tell Jesus and Buddha I said, “wasss good!?!?”