Dear diary,

I haven’t written something meaningful in a really long time. I guess that’s due to the fact that college has been keeping me really busy, which in turn doesn’t allow me a lot of time to write something that is not only meaningful to myself but to Odyssey as a whole.

Every time I try to write, I for some reason always put on depressing music. I think I do that to possibly get my creative juices flowing. Up until now, it never worked. I don’t know why it’s just now working, all it’s doing is making me depressed and write this article.

I feel like I’m treating this as my personal diary right now. It’s kind of weird but it feels like a huge relief. I think the last time I wrote in a diary was when I was in elementary school and all I remember writing about is being mad at my brother for being annoying.

As I’m sitting here, alone in my dorm, I can’t help but feel lonely. Sure, I’m surrounded by great friends, but college is still super lonely. I guess that’s one thing high school never really prepared me for, the loneliness of life as I get older. It’s honestly really depressing to think that this is only the start of many lonely years to come.

The thing is, it’s not an unbearable lonely. It’s just a thin shade of loneliness that sometimes keeps me up at night or causes me to shed a tear or two when I’m stressed and wishing I could be curled up in the comfort of my bed at home with my cat lying next to me. But it’s bearable.

A bearable loneliness, how ironic is that?

One thing that a lot of people forget, is that being lonely does not mean someone is depressed.

Whenever someone asks you how you’re doing, you always answer “Good”, you never actually say how you’re doing. Because in all honesty, they are not wanting a real answer 98% of the time. People just asking how you’re doing out of politeness and as a way to make quick conversation.

I wonder what life would be like if everyone always said how they were feeling. Maybe life would be easier and maybe we all wouldn’t feel as lonely anymore. It’s nice to wish, right?

Anyways, my thoughts have felt scattered lately. College has a tendency of doing that to people. All I ever think about is school, sorority, and work. I’m on such a boring routine and I hate it. I want more adventure in my life because the only adventure I have right now in my life is the bacteria swabs I get to go look at in my Biology lab this Friday.

I know that this is all completely random information, but that’s what a diary entry is. Putting thoughts to paper, or I guess in this case, thoughts to keyboard.

I guess the weird thing is, after writing this I don’t feel as lonely anymore.