What do you say to the family you never known? What do you say to the father you barely remember? What do you say to the sister you didn’t know existed until last October? Well first let me start from the beginning.

Dear birth father,

I’ve always wondered who you were. I’ve always wondered what my life would've been like if you didn’t chose the drugs over your own children. I’ve always wondered what it would of been like growing up with you as my “ father” and growing up with all my birth siblings. But life doesn’t always turn out the way you planned it. But this isn’t a letter hating you.

I remember when I was younger going on visits that usually consisted of Pizza Hut or Hardee's. But that meant I got to spend time with you right? I was just a little girl so I didn’t really understand what was going on, other than that I lived with one family and had to go on visits with another. I remember I stopped going on visits to see you. I was too young and I didn't understand that not wanting to go on visits meant I didn't get to see you anymore. For the rest of my life I would always regret the decision I made at such a young age. My life wasn't terrible but I always wondered what it would have been like with you my birth dad by my side.

My childhood wasn’t all bad though at the age of three I started tumbling and had the opportunity to compete in tumbling meets. From competing in tumbling I even had to change to travel around the United States for State and National competitions. When I became older I was involved in basketball, cheerleading, softball, volleyball, 4-H, Girl Scouts, and many more activates. I graduated high school, I have a job, I'm in college, and I’m on the road to becoming a Social Worker.

But everything changed in October 2015 when I got a Facebook friend request from my real brother and cousin. It was crazy I always wondered where my birth family was and when they finally found me I was in total shock. I started off my talking to my brother and cousin then it led to us talking on the phone and having a great conversation just catching up with life. Then I was able to facetime and talk to my birth sister I didn't know existed until October we could talk for hours and hours.

Then one day my lifelong dream came true, I finally met you and most of my birth family. I was so scared and I didn't know what to expect. I didn't even tell my adoptive parents because I didn't want their feelings hurt. When I seen you guys we hugged and said hey. I sat there awkwardly because what do you say to the family you haven't known for 16+ years I was speechless. We chatted then my sister and I left to hangout with friends and get to know each other. It was like we've known each other our whole lives. On my way home that night I was the happiest girl in the world and I want to say thank you for changing your life around for my littler sister. It may have been too late for me but I was so glad to see that you were clean and was living a good life.

So here is everything that I was to nervous and scared to say to you in person. Here's to many more meetings and to a new relationship that we can built.

Much Love,