Where has time gone? You’re heading off to your sophomore year of high school and I’m feeling older by the minute. I still remember the day mom told me I was going to have a baby sister. Little 4 year-old me couldn’t contain the joy at the thought of becoming a big sister. From the day you came into my life, you’ve been a huge blessing. To be honest, at first it was tough to get used to you but once I did, things could not have worked out better. You’ve become an amazing young lady and I couldn’t be anymore proud of you. I know that things have been difficult between us lately, but just know that I don't want things to be this way. I don't want to grow apart.
We were never perfect sisters; we've always had our fights. That’s what sisters do and it’s completely normal, but recently, we’ve drifted apart so much that it’s gotten out of hand. I know, times have changed, we’ve both grown up, made new friends, and started new stages in our lives. We should be able to share our experiences and have each others backs. It’s like everyday I’m at war with the person from across the hall and it shouldn’t be like that. At all.
You say it’s my fault because ever since I started college, I’ve become a different person and that I’m never around anymore. You blame me for turning to my friends when I need to vent or talk to someone instead of turning to you, but it feel like I can’t even talk to you without an argument sparking up. As sisters, we should be able to trust and respect each other, but it feels as though neither of us feel like we can. I understand where you're coming from when you point out what you believe might be my fault for the demise of our relationship. Yes I’ve changed, but so have you. I don’t blame you because it’s just a phase that you’re going through. A phase that I have gone through, at which I probably acted like that, maybe worse, and now I just want to give you advice on how to get through it and be here for you.
What ever happened to those days when we would wake up, eat cereal by the TV and watch Dora the Explorer or Arthur and spend time together? Or to when we would blast music and use the remotes as microphones and sing along to Hannah Montana or High School Musical? Those were the good days, and I’ve been feeling a bit nostalgic lately because I miss that, and I miss us being that close.
Although we’re going through a really rough patch right now I want you know that I’ll always be here for you no matter what happens. I may not always show it, but I do love you very much and I thank God everyday that I still have you here to help me deal with mom and dad (sometimes). Regardless of what happens, remember that I'm here for you and I love you very much. There’s no telling when this will end, but I hope soon because I want my baby sister back.
