Now this poem is, undoubtedly, one of my favorite pieces I’ve ever written. That’s due to my emotional state during the production of it. The name “Dead Butterflies” actually emanates from me realizing that the butterflies that were once in my stomach are dead now. Furthermore, for another accurate interpretation on this, butterflies represent new beginnings so, considering that, there are no new beginnings within this relationship I’ve had with this female. Nonetheless, it’s a great piece and I hope you enjoy.

I keep a straight face when I say that,

It’s a shame we didn’t make it

I remember when you used to be the bomb…

Until you detonated

One day, you going realize that the train you missed…

…Done respectfully got to its destination

One thing you just could not understand as a person…

Is that there’s a difference between a “no good dude” and a man that’s not perfect

You see, I shared my deepest insecurities and fears with you

Although I care for you,

When you left, I didn’t shed a tear for you!

Cause I was here for you,

Held the door,

Pulled out a chair for you

So I dare for you! to say that I ain’t give no love to you

Cause I gave you everything,

But peep this, everything wasn’t enough for you

“The ones that be quick to leave during the worst case

Be the ones that never intended on staying in the first place”

I stood tall, soaked in your flaws

You the one that surrendered!

I put so much into this and got nothing out!

I feel like such a beginner!

…it’s hard to forget someone that gave you so much to remember.

And then I think of you during the worst times,

Like when I’m wining down and relaxing,

I start to think about every moment we ever had and wish that it never happened

We are out of a relationship now and yet you’ve become more of a distraction

I thought of her while I was sitting in class

And I deleted every single last picture we had

So I’m left with mental images to reminisce and remind me that what I’m missing is her

And I kept some of the things you gave me but what is it worth

No one has ever pissed me off this much, how does it feel to know that you did it first?

Then again, it’s easier to say I’m mad then to admit that I’m hurt

You used my heart against me as a weapon who would’ve guessed I got my blessings mixed with a curse?!

Someone told me love is fiction.

I didn’t listen to a word…

…got committed to her

Now I’m stuck and struck by the fact that I actually thought true love existed at first

I could be calling you all types of names…but I’m resisting the urge

And if you wanna know how I feel,

Picture a hearse..

In traffic, in the back, a closed casket,

With a man that died cashless,

He inside missing a shirt

…d..eh…but……when I try to think of you, I be forgetting my words

I begin to think about the things we tried

And reminiscing and wishing it work

Now I’m down, face frowned, I walk around like its okay to be mad

Waiting on someone else to make me happy, but that’s the best way be sad.

A lot of things changed,

You left my life and my heart had a new start as it overcame pain

I once felt drained, At times I’d go insane

Tryna organize my brain cause

I ain’t losing no order.

I look at it like monkey bars

At some point, you gotta let go

If you wanna keep moving forward

And tell your dad he was right,

I ain’t the dude for his daughter

And tell him, I was struggling

It was nothing I could do for his daughter

Be sure to mention I was a gentleman,

Never rude to his daughter

Loving her is the only thing I ever tried to get through to his daughter

So many times I’d repeat I love you dearly…

But I guess I was too blind to see that you were too deaf to hear me.

Dead Butterflies