God created me to love you. You saved me, baby girl. It is so hard to put into words the feelings that rush over me anytime someone says your name. The emotions that come with being your mom are scary yet exciting. I never knew a love so deep was possible.

I was a baby when I had a baby. I was twenty-one years old when God blessed me with you. I was twenty when I found out I was going to be a mommy and I thought my life was ruined. It is crazy that what I thought was going to be the end of my "life" was actually when my soul was born again.

It is frightening to think of where I would be today without you. There is an endless amount of possibility, but one thing is for sure, I wouldn't be who I was meant to be. I was on the fast track to becoming a Registered Nurse and looking back I would have been absolutely miserable. Don't get me wrong, the medical field is a wonderful place, just not meant for me.

At the beginning of our journey together I was scared and nervous and nearly three years later, I still am. I want to be the best mommy I can be and it scares me that I might let you down from time to time. Each day I wake up with your little toes in my back and I thank God for the opportunity to be your mom.

I know life hasn't been all rainbows and butterflies since you came into this world, with all the moving around and the heartbreak, but without you, mommy would have never gotten through it. You saved me.

Thank you for teaching me patience and showing me that it is okay to struggle. Thank you for holding me in your precious little hands when it all becomes too much sometimes. Thank you, sissy, for being my best friend and my happiness.

I'm sorry for leaving to go to school every day and working over the nights at the hospital. I'm sorry you don't have a mommy and daddy who are together. I'm sorry for all the tears and the late nights traveling across America. I'm sorry I'm not perfect.

Please know everything I do is to make our lives better. I promise I will live the rest of my life loving you. I promise you will never have to worry about being alone or being afraid. I promise I will show you what love looks like in a healthy way and I promise to always paint your fingernails whenever you want.

When God gave me you, he gave me a reason. I love you.