I have several kinds of best friends. I have the best friend that I've known since I was in diapers; we don't see each other often but I know she's always there. I have the best friend that I met at summer camp and I just can't seem to get rid of him. I have the best friend that I can call on to travel and be a little spontaneous with. Then there's you – the best friend that understands my “crazy” and has her own share of it.
When I say we’re “crazy,” I don’t mean that we’re certifiably insane or that we belong on Girls Gone Wild. I mean that we both have our demons – the ones that convince us to check the locks 19 times or that every man we see is holding a gun. I mean that we are both fighting a battle with invisible illnesses and sometimes we feel like we’re swinging at nothing, because it’s in our minds.
But as someone who understands your fight and loves you, I won’t let you swing alone. I’m always in the dark with you, arm wrapped through yours and feeling our way through together. You can call me at four in the morning or four in the afternoon, I’m here when you need me and even when you don’t.
From the times we just sit around hardly speaking, to when we're screaming laughing, to when we can't find the energy to text for days, thank you. Thank you for understanding when I don't feel like talking and giving me the time to work up to it. Thank you for always checking on me, day after day, just in case. Thank you for giving me the space to cry even though we both know that I never will. Thank you for knowing what's going on in my head with a single look.
Just know that I understand your struggle and I see it for what it is – just one part of you. You’re not all dark and you’re not “crazy.” I see your kindness and your grace. I see the fire that burns in your belly and your aptitude for achieving everything you put in your sight. I see your beauty, inside and out, and how ridiculously intelligent you are. I see your struggle and I see that you’re more than just your demons.
So, thank you. I see you. I love you. I’m always here for you.
