I'm very happy with my life. I have a good set of friends, my family loves me (I hope) and I'm working towards a career that I know I will love and be successful in. I like to think that I have a sense of humor, I can easily adapt to new environments, hence me moving from sunny side Orange County to Seattle, I am an okay person all around, except two things.

I'm "fat" and "ugly". Yeah, I know, we are all about celebrating and appreciating our bodies and that everyone is beautiful in their unique way, but sometimes it doesn't feel like it and I'm OK with that.

It nothing of new, I've always been the chubby kid even though I played sports and ate mostly healthy. I've had the weird shaped head and the big chipmunk cheeks. I buy so many acne products to help with my face but nothing seems to work.

I'm the big friend, but I gave up on worrying about that years ago. I'm finally reaching to a place where I can love and be myself, and want to work to be more fit, not to be skinner. It's not about being skinny or fat, its about being healthy and fit. I'm doing this for me, not for the people who stare, gossip or care.

I'm living my best life. I'm away at college in sleepless Seattle, have a job that cares about me and my work schedule and a group of friends for the wild rides. I don't have time to not be happy.

I'm letting myself take control of what I want to do and how to do it. No more of feeling shameful about myself because of my weight, how I look. I'm going to be me for me and thats it.

You can't do anything to stop me.