I'm always rushing. I rush for everything in my life and so do most people in our society. Everything is a rush.

We want to rush to have the life that we think we want. We want the house, the husband (or wife), the kids, the car, the job. We want it all and we want it right now. We are in such a rush to get to "the end goal", even though we never will truly get there and we don't ever slow down and appreciate the journey.

I work in food service, and everyone who ever has knows plenty about this type of rush. You get a rush, probably three times a day. This is a time where you look at the clock and all of a sudden an hour passed and you didn't even realize it. At work this may seem like a blessing because you are one hour closer to going home, but then you think about it and that's one hour of your life that just flew by and you'll never remember.

On the subject of work, I always feel like I am in a rush to get to work. Maybe I scheduled an appointment too close to when I'm scheduled to go in or I just thought I could squeeze in another half hour of sleep, and then a half hour turns into an hour and suddenly you're tying your shoes while you clock in.

It wasn't until I was running in the house after work to change into my comfy clothes and fall down on the couch to watch TV with my mom that this whole idea of rushing everywhere got to me. Where was I going? My clothes weren't going anywhere, the TV wasn't going anywhere, so why was I in such a hurry? Rushing is exhausting, especially after already being tired from work, I was just wearing myself out even more.

I don't know where I am going so there is nothing to rush to. On my way home from the store tonight, I started praying out loud. This is one of my favorite things to do. Have my uninterrupted alone time where I can actually speak to The Lord! And when I'm talking to Him there are certainly times when I simply just sit there, not knowing what I am supposed to say. I don't always know what I am supposed to be praying for, and I say that. Sometimes I just say "thank you".

But this takes time. It takes a lot of time out of our day that we are not always willing to give up because we are so so worried about the time. I knew that I had things to do and get done once I got inside my house, but I chose to sit outside in my little beat up car that I love so much and spend time thanking God and taking the time to actually hear Him.

This is another thing that we rush for. We rush to hear God. We want him to talk to us right then and there and give us all of the answers when it is convenient for us. How do you think you are going to hear God if you don't take the time to listen to him?

I know that I don't always do this, and it certainly is hard. Lately I've found myself on certain days feeling very sad and I didn't even know why. Something struck me wrong, or the weather was just slightly too dreary and it threw me all off. And there is one thing, and only one thing that brings me more joy than I thought I could ever have and that is spending time in conversation with My Creator. My only regret is how long it took me to figure this out, and although I still have growing to do, I see so many new things about myself and grow so much faster when I take this time to slow down and listen.