It was a considerably gloomy day for the middle of July when I truly analyzed the lyrics to the song “It’s Different for Girls” by Dierks Bentley. It just so happened to be the same day that I discovered my “high school sweetheart” had disregarded my biggest insecurities, broke every ounce of my trust, and attempted to break the strong foundation that is my self-esteem; he cheated on me. Or, it was the day that I discovered he cheated on me.

As the lyric “nobody said it was fair, when love disappears, they can’t pretend it was never there” blasted through my car speakers, I felt a flood of emotions come over me. Now, this wasn’t some perfect movie scene, I didn’t shed a tear to where my mascara perfectly ran down my red cheeks , I didn’t have to abruptly pull my car over and get myself together, and I didn’t even have to resist the urge to subtweet him (unfortunately, this was the hardest to hold in). Instead, I was silent. I shut my mouth and mind to everything that was weighing down on me.

So, why does it have to be different for girls? Fore my motives aren’t the same as said boy in Dierks’ song, I won’t resolve my issues by getting drunk with my friends and hooking up with someone, nor will I act tough. But, what I won’t do is sit at home and wonder what “I did wrong”. Because, the brutal and honest truth is I didn’t do a damn thing wrong. I was beautifully and ignorantly loyal to someone who didn’t deserve the best of me, so what will happen when I give my all to someone who does deserve me?

Here is what will happen: I will find the right guy who will ensure that I am so ridiculously bright and full of positivity that never will a day will pass where I have to question where his loyalty is. He will start a relationship with me with the right intentions and will honestly and fully love all of me, and only me.

With all of that being said, I will not let those three minutes and one second of a song dictate the woman I will be. I will be better and not bitter. And most importantly, I will be richer, because I pawned the ring he gave me. Best ninety dollars ever.