As the transition from an adolescent to a young adult initiates, certain groundbreaking realizations begin to strike you during the process. And personally, making some of the realizations that I have as I’ve grown older has shocked me more than anything considering that my mind once had a completely different outlook.
One of the most consistent battles I think so many people face as they transform into adults is the initial gravitation towards the complexity of human relationships, and the emotions that result from involvement in them. The feelings of intrigue and desire to be involved in complex relationships can easily be justified by young age and the naive behavior that we partake in when we haven’t fully met maturity. However, at one point, I started to become self-aware of my association with relationships that were solely complicated and messy. For a while, I was worried that I’d never find interest in anything other than only that; no matter what kind of relationship it may be. I could go on forever with a list of reasons as to why certain people want complexity - and truthfully, a lot of those reasons would come directly from my own past justifications.
With that said, I ultimately reached a point in my life that made me realize that complicated and treacherous wasn’t fun anymore. It was when I silently admitted to myself that I didn’t know how to exist in a situation involving another person without feeling like things were on the verge of devastation. It wasn’t interesting, and it wasn’t exciting meeting the same types of people and watching it end the same way every time. Life became the epitome of a broken record. The anxiety that occurred from gray areas and uncertainty weren’t welcome anymore, and it wasn’t how I wanted to spend any more of my time. It took having the right kind of people surrounding me to finally understand what I wanted, and that I had been choosing against myself for a long time.
I accepted that you can be smart without being cynical, that you can be happy without being naïve; and that most importantly, you will drive yourself to the edge of insanity chasing people that don’t know what they want.
It’s obvious that no situation in life can ever be perfect. Some people have what others lack, and others lack what some people may have. But as you go on and begin to appreciate those who bring you much more ease than pressure, it is so clear to see there’s nothing complicated about someone that genuinly cares for you.
