From A College Senior At War With Herself

From A College Senior At War With Herself

Wanting to move on and go back all at once

It is easy to say that as we age we are consistently wanting to be on a different journey in our lives. As a kid, I couldn't wait to grow up and be on my own. Now that I am at that age, I just want to go back. I remember beginning college and just thinking to myself how quickly it'll go by. How one day you'll wake up and it'll all be different. As I sit here on my first day of classes Monday, August 28, 2017, I do not know what to expect. I am beginning my last fall semester of my undergrad and potentially my last fall semester as a student. I am excited and nervous all at the same time.

Part of me can't wait to leave school and begin my life in the outside world. The other part wants to go back and be young again and maybe enjoy life a little bit more while I could. I am excited to be taking the last few classes I need for my degree, and come May, walk across the stage and receive my "fake diploma," till the moment months later when I finally receive the real one in the mail. It will be a proud day, showing that no matter what I have gone through these past years I have persevered and finished strong.

At the same time, I don't feel ready to go out on my own (this maybe more of a fear than an actual reality.) I feel like there is so much more that I could do and I almost don't want to leave. Don't get me wrong, the idea of no longer paying thousands of dollars to receive an education will be gone, but the looming debt from college loans will come knocking. I'll just pray that when that day does come I'm not home.

I'm finally a senior, but at the same time, I wish I could go back.

I don't know how it all went by so fast-- I'm no longer that weird freshman. This year is going to be a challenge in all aspects. This year will be the first time I will not play soccer since I was 4 years old. Physically I can no longer play, but mentally I don't believe it. I missed pre- season and was partially distracted by work and the stress of school beginning. But as I settle back into the comforts of school, I notice it now.

I may not be able to rewind time, but what I can do is make the most of this year. Make the memories count and the fun times last. Work hard and achieve goals while also taking a second to breathe and take one last look around. Four years goes by quick. Hopefully, I can slow this last one down!

Cover Image Credit: Kelsey Hoffman

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I Blame My Dad For My High Expectations

Dad, it's all your fault.

I always tell my dad that no matter who I date, he's always my number one guy. Sometimes I say it as more of a routine thing. However, the meaning behind it is all too real. For as long as I can remember my dad has been my one true love, and it's going to be hard to find someone who can top him.

My dad loves me when I am difficult. He knows how to keep the perfect distance on the days when I'm in a mood, how to hold me on the days that are tough, and how to stand by me on the days that are good.

He listens to me rant for hours over people, my days at school, or the episode of 'Grey's Anatomy' I watched that night and never once loses interest.

He picks on me about my hair, outfit, shoes, and everything else after spending hours to get ready only to end by telling me, “You look good." And I know he means it.

He holds the door for me, carries my bags for me, and always buys my food. He goes out of his way to make me smile when he sees that I'm upset. He calls me randomly during the day to see how I'm doing and how my day is going and drops everything to answer the phone when I call.

When it comes to other people, my dad has a heart of gold. He will do anything for anyone, even his worst enemy. He will smile at strangers and compliment people he barely knows. He will strike up a conversation with anyone, even if it means going way out of his way, and he will always put himself last.

My dad also knows when to give tough love. He knows how to make me respect him without having to ask for it or enforce it. He knows how to make me want to be a better person just to make him proud. He has molded me into who I am today without ever pushing me too hard. He knew the exact times I needed to be reminded who I was.

Dad, you have my respect, trust, but most of all my heart. You have impacted my life most of all, and for that, I can never repay you. Without you, I wouldn't know what I to look for when I finally begin to search for who I want to spend the rest of my life with, but it might take some time to find someone who measures up to you.

To my future husband, I'm sorry. You have some huge shoes to fill, and most of all, I hope you can cook.

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5 Ways To Tackle Credit Overload In College As A Sleep-Deprived Senior

So you think you can take 19 credits. Well, you can!


So you were ambitious and went into credit overload this semester. Cheers to you! You're hopefully right on track to graduate, if not ahead. Regardless of the reason you chose to bog yourself down with more work than others, here are some tips I've come up with along the way for a successful semester.

1. Make a daily to-do list for each class.

Every day I make a list of all of my classes and what is upcoming for each class. That includes assigned reading, homework and upcoming quizzes and tests. This allows me to visually plan what is on my plate for each day. I am also far less likely to forget an assignment if I continuously write it down until I complete it.

2. Prioritize these items!

Rank the items you just listed to your highest priority (due today or tomorrow) to least priority (due a few weeks from now). This allows you to manage your time and get what you need to get done on time.

3. Try to do your homework on the day it is assigned.

I understand that this is obviously easier said than done. But, one of my professors gave my class this advice in my very first semester of college, and I have remembered it and cherished that advice ever since.

If you are assigned homework on Monday in a class that meets Monday, Wednesday and Friday, it is much better to get it out of the way on Monday afternoon rather than wait until Tuesday night (or Wednesday morning, if you're good at procrastinating). This also lessens your workload on weekends.

4. Etch out time every day to spend in the library.

I never used to believe it when people said you do better work in the library because at home you have more freedom and are distracted. Now that I am in my senior year of college, I have finally found that to be true. I wish I realized that sooner. Now I spend at least three hours a day in the campus library three days a week. If you want to spread it out to one hour a day, that's fine, too. Find a schedule that works for you.

5. Keep your eye on the prize.

My university has a web page with a countdown to graduation. I keep it bookmarked on my laptop. When I am feeling unmotivated, I click the link and remind myself of how many days there are until graduation. If your university doesn't have this feature, you can make your own graduation countdown on a variety of countdown websites. Find something tangible to focus on achieving. You can do this!

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