So I did it, barely, and not well may I add, but I did it. I finished my freshman year at University and my final breath of fresh air with no upcoming due dates, tests, essays or classes feels really damn good.
When I was fourteen years old I took a drivers ed class like any other aspiring young driver and something my instructor said to me really resonated. He said "you only get to panic at the wheel if you are on fire, the cars on fire, you are slipping on ice, the brakes won't work and, you're on the wrong side of the road," well college feels a lot like that scenario.
There were so many times when I just thought I can't do this, I don't want to do this, its too much for me. As challenging as this first year was I'd like to remind ever student in the same situation I am, that its just school. I know, that sounds like the understatement of the year, but its true. Sometimes you have to step back and simplify your situation for your own sanity.
I won't say "well other people are starving," or "other people barely make ends meet," and "look how privileged you are," because even though all those things are true, if this is the situation you are in and you think its tough, well than that's it.
As I reflect on my freshman year, even through all my failures, I still see all my blessings. I am blessed to attend a university, I am blessed to have made all the amazing friends that I have,and I am blessed to have support from my family.
I am blessed to have been given the opportunity to fail.
Sounds silly, right?
But I failed a few tests, got my self into some silly trouble and my life went on. I learned from my mistakes and I get to take on another chapter of this wild ride and for that I am blessed.
No matter the outcome of your year whether it be you got straight A's, failed a class, made friends, lost friends, realized you miss home more than you thought, whether you succeeded or whether you failed. You are blessed.
