For everyone who has ever been called cold, cold-hearted or who is simply horrible at showing your emotions, I feel your pain.
I’m not necessarily saying I’m cold-hearted. I like to think I have a heart, I just don’t reveal my emotions to the extent other people do. Sometimes I wish I was better at displaying how I feel, but that rarely happens. I could be the happiest person in the world and you would never be able to tell by the look on my face. Some call it resting bitch face, I call it, Sorry, IDK how to show emotion, forgive me.
I think the worst part about not showing how you feel is that no one ever knows what you’re truly thinking. I mean, ughhhhhh, do I have to explain myself 24/7? Why can’t people understand that even though I’m acting so nonchalant, I’m lovin’ life right now? What happens in my mind versus what is shown through my facial expressions are sometimes two totally opposite things.
If people could read minds, my life would be SO much easier (but then again, maybe not). So I get the title of being cold-hearted because I don’t sympathize for people when they stub their toes or make a big deal about minuscule things. I feel like the Grinch, suffering from a tiny heart, but deep down I care about certain people and certain things, and as long as I know I do, then who gives a sh*t if the rest of the world doesn’t?
Sure, I might not be a huge “hugger,” but I can be when I want to be (or when I feel it’s absolutely necessary, like when you're leaving your friends for three months). Who cares if I hate cuddling? I’d rather be sleeping on my own side of the bed and not facing another person as they sleep, because ... uh ew. But if I’m in the mood, I’m all for it. Why does that make me a cold person?
There’s no gray area when it comes to being emotional for me. It’s white or black; I’m either all for it or not about it. And that is what comes back to get me.
I think you lose certain chances when you don't reveal all your cards in the "emotions" category. People get the wrong idea and assume you don't like them or are a b*tch, when in the back of your mind, you're thinking about when you have time to nap later.
I guess what I’m trying to say is, never judge a book by its cover. As painful and as cliché as that is for me to type right now, it couldn’t be more spot-on. So, yes I act like I don’t care and nothing fazes me, and most of the time, I really don’t care and nothing fazes me, but there’s always that 10 percent chance I actually do care. I just don’t know how to go about showing it.
You have to learn to give people like this the benefit of the doubt because, in time, they'll come around. Keep in mind a person can't stay cold forever. (Bug-Eyed Emoji)
You're either over-emotional or slightly cold-hearted. Being cold-hearted is simply the easier of the two.
