It is hard during the holidays when you have lost someone you have loved or known. Try to stay positive and remember the good times, it will be really hard and the pain never goes away but least it becomes bearable. It is okay to be sad during the holidays but don't be consumed with it. Christmas time is for families to be together and it is like a hole when you are one short but try to make new memories or travel instead of being home.
My first Christmas after my grandpa died it was really horrible. I was really sad because of the fond memories that we had together and i wish i had him with us. That Christmas we did things differently we had plans for the holiday and we didn't stay home often because it was sad. We did new things that Christmas and we had a great time it eased the pain in my heart. We went Ice skating in a park, went to a public Christmas tree lighting, we sand in the choir. We spent more time with the whole family.
My heart goes out to the family members that have lost a loved one in this past year... It will be okay and you will make it.