Never once did it cross my mind that I would have to eventually define who I am to the world. You’re unexpectedly tossed into reality one day and told to get it together. Since when did life get so rough? I never understood those who simply get to sit back and judge you. People want to define you. They feel as though they are allowed to sculpt who you are in the image of the world. It took a while for me to catch on, but once I did, I ripped my pre-sketched-self away from those people. I started to believe what they were saying was true. I felt helpless in my own body. It felt as though I was watching myself from afar.
Recently, I came across a quote that I couldn’t seem to get out of my head. Abraham Lincoln said, “Whatever you are, be a good one.” It sounds cheesy, but as my friend and I began posing in front of this quoted wall mural, I seriously began to think. I all of the sudden found myself stumped. I’ve lost control of who I am and I have found myself at the mercy of other people and their opinions of me. It triggered a spark inside of me. I want to be the old, confident me. I’m breaking free of the negative around me.
Let me tell you, I am not a girl. I am a young professional lady. You can find me bettering myself, by working hard on my education. Every day, I dress maturely and look for the good in my day. So desperately do I look for a good laugh too! Life is too short to not laugh about something dumb every single day. Find friends that are going to make you smile rather than cry. Relationships that trap you by tears are doomed. As of today, I have a clearer picture of who I am to the world.
You see, ultimately their opinion does not matter, but what does matter is how I impact those around me. People often times, will have random people turning their nose up at them. I’ve been there and I’m done being the reason that someone is having a bad day. It doesn’t do me any good to knock someone else down. I love to know that I am killing someone with kindness. Let’s get real, there is something about being nice to someone who is out to get you. It’s nice to know that you are being the purest form of yourself.
I am confident that I am me but I know that I am human and I do make mistakes. What matters is that I am striving to put one foot in front of the other. I am doing my best to stay afloat in life. To be honest, my world seems to be crumbling around me, but I have never been happier. If life were rosy all of the time, it would not be very fun… like at all. So, know it get better from here. All you have to do is discover who you are to the world because I know who I am. I am simply Sara.