Throughout my life, I have been referred to as crazy, insane, psychotic, weird, strange, or whatever else you want to call it. When I was younger, it bothered me that people seemed to view me as different. But as I've grown older, I've learned that "crazy" is oftentimes the best way to be.
Urban Dictionary describes crazy as a term used by people to describe what they do not understand or think is not how something or someone should be or act. If that is what being crazy entails, then I am all for it. As Jimi Hendrix put it, "craziness is like Heaven."
However there are times when I think that I might actually be a little off kilter. I just don't seem to be interested in, or act according to, what most of my peers expect of me. I guess it's that I don't fit the mold. Sometimes feeling like you don't belong can be very lonely, and disheartening. It isn't easy being the odd one out. No one in their right mind wants to feel that they don't belong.
Yet because of my "craziness," I am creative. I may be at times unrealistic (to the majority of the population). I am soulful. I am passionate. I am loving. I am bold. I have no-filter. I am hard-headed. I am skillful. I am empathetic. I say what's on my mind, all of the time. I am me. Because of this I am able to see the world in unique and different ways. I don't just see normal, I see endless possibilities where others may see none. I think that sometimes it takes a little bit of crazy to be successful, but unfortunately some people never go crazy. So I am lucky as well.
If there is one thing I have learned in my short 21 years here on planet Earth, it is that what matters most in my life is happiness. I could have everything and anything I could ever dream of, but this does not necessarily mean that I will be satisfied. Living has so much to do with perspective.
As Paolo Coelho said, "I prefer to be crazy and happy than normal and bitter. At the end of the day, I am happy being crazy. And who knows? Crazy just might be the new sane...call me crazy."
"What is sanity after all, except the control of madness?" (Josephine Winslow Johnson)
