Yes, I have made mistakes but I am not perfect. I made those mistakes because you hurt me. Don’t slut- shame me because you don’t have me anymore; I am worth more than the way you have treated me. You used me at your convenience and then threw me away like I was something disposable. Although, what hurts the most is that I hoped you would change.

I was so in love with you to the extent where I allowed you to play with my emotions. I’d let you manipulate me because I didn’t want to believe that I was being used. I would take advantage of any moment I could have you; even if it was just that……a moment. I thought, I would rather have a moment than nothing all. At those moments, you made me feel wanted and I could tell you liked my company whenever you smiled at me. We would shyly flirt, laugh and kiss until the sun rose up. When our lips touched, my heart would beat rapidly and my body would tremble a little because it felt so right. Those moments, I cherished when I knew you would move past it like any regular day.

Then there came a day when I felt myself losing grasp of those moments because they never expanded from that. I wanted something deeper, a relationship. I cared about you and I wanted to make you happy but you didn’t want those things with me. I was strictly a girl to satisfy your needs at your own time. I loved you and you said, “I’ll change for someone who is worth it.”

I just hope that when you do come across a girl that is worth your love; that you’ll cherish her and love her unconditionally. I don’t wish it upon any girl to experience what you have put me through because no girl deserves that.