I have a problem.

It’s not so minuscule as biting my fingernails, but it’s not so large as a drug problem. It’s still a problem. In my eyes it's huge because it's my problem. But in God’s eyes it’s beautiful.

I’ve probably only uttered my problem aloud once or twice in the sanctity of my dorm room. But here goes. I don’t like talking about feelings. And this problem has caused a lot of heartache for me in the past. I brush things off without even thinking about them. I push a thought to the back of mind so I don’t feel the pain. All that did for me though, was cause more heartache and more trouble than it was worth.

I wanted to think and seem like I had it all together. But I didn’t. And do you know what? That is okay. We’re not supposed to have it all together all the time, because if we did we’d be perfect. And if we’re perfect, then we know everything. And if we know everything, where does that leave God?

God sees our problems, our brokenness, as beautiful. I mean He’s the one that created us, right? If He didn’t love creation, then why did He create? God lets us use our brokenness not to dwell on how much life can suck. God gives us these broke times and messes to stretch us, to teach us, to let us grow closer to Him. God also gives us these times and these attributes to further grow His kingdom. How freaking cool is that?

The things you hate about yourself, your pet peeves, your brokenness, your broken times can all be used not just for good, but the greatest good. Think about everything you’ve been through, everything you might go through in the future. Think about the gifts and trials God has personally given you. Every person you meet can be influenced because of a similarity you share with them. That could give a direct line to sharing the love and life of Jesus Christ. And God is the one who lets all those things happen. God allows you to be apart of the growing kingdom.

He wants you. He wants to use you. He loves you. He loves the broken and the crazy and the unbelievable. God heals all wounds. Every last wound. He chose you. Use your brokenness and your trials to help lead others to Christ himself.

I don’t have it all together and I never will. But the perfect thing about that is that God will always have it all together and He will always know what you need. We’re all broken. We all have our problems. But it’s up to us to turn to God for healing. It’s not going to happen overnight, but over months and years. Grow. Learn. Share. But most of all, love your brokenness.