Remember when you were, small you believe that getting $5 dollars was the biggest accomplishment. But little did you know, that was nothing compared to what you discovered when you turned twelve. This was me and sometimes I wish I would have enjoyed my childhood a little bit more and would have savored the moments where what I thought were responsibilities, in fact, was not. When I think about the images that I have of those times in my head, they seem often glorious but at the same time full of nostalgia.
I often think about the times where I would get angry at my parents because they said I did not have many responsibilities but only one thing. I would respond that I wanted more responsibilities and I wanted to be busy, and they would always say "yeah, wait till your older". Now that I am older, I wish I would have listened to them and really soaked all the moments. At the same time, I am sure a lot of people get to a point in their life's where they think this way. I do understand that this is just a natural way of life.
The question that still lingers in my mind is how do I enjoy the moments that I am experiencing right now? How do I not get caught up in deadlines, school, work and just every other thing that comes with it? If I am completely honest, I do not have a full concrete answer and somehow, I am okay with this. Not having an answer to things sometimes is a very good thing because it makes you go almost on this adventure of self-discovery. I've heard many people say that most of the time is not the end goal that is worth it but the ride along the way.
Some people who are narrower minded who tend to say, "eye on the prize is the only way" are the ones who later really look back in their old age and say they wish they would have stopped and smelled the roses. As cheesy as this sounds sometimes when the weather outside is cool and the sun rays are out, I stop and inhale so deeply and if something in my life may not be going as planned that inhale makes me feel like it will all work out.
Even tho I feel like I should have enjoyed my childhood a little more, I realize that sometimes things are meant to be a certain way. I believe when we are born we have two roads ahead and the decisions ahead are what makes us who we are and decide what time off we are taking. The one everyone takes or the one less travel by. All we can do is often reflect on what we have done in the past and see how we can better ourselves for the future. All we can do is keep moving forward and let our minds run free as if it was on a field of sunflowers.
